ahem..firstly let mi apologise fer these recent quarrelling thingy..
juz feel realli no good 2wards all these quarrelling..hope these quarrel will juz end..perhaps i should juz write how i feel? but promise mi no sorries and stuffs..
first on the list..kinda hurting after all u dun believe mi..even if so, only 80%...i cant deny e fact it's kinda ... hurting.. i bet u dun believe mi 2wards e things i say abt sb they all..i'm speaking e truth..tats all i can say..
secondly, juz now u said u'll TRY not 2 see mi in another way..does tat mean in e past u see mi another way? quite disappointing..i definately cant blame u, its all my fault..maybe i'm nv truthful and stuffs..
thirdly, so wad o's coming...e fact tat u ask mi dun b so close 2 mi iz realli hurting..i tot its solid, but e way u say it seems easily broken..i dunnoe how ter say..
everytime u ask mi msg others, not u..realli realli can make mi go mad..i dun wanna u lyk tat.. get tis clear, i wanna sms u and receive ya sms..i juz dun wanna u lyk ... kinda "push" mi 2 others..i juz only wan u got it? yea.. i dun deny i got msg others, but only when they sms mi den i reply..i get ya kind intentions..u noe my bill iz bursting so u trying 2 stop mi from wasting sms..but........tat doesn't mean 2 sms others..i juz dun wanna u 2 ask mi do tat..or even when tok on phone, u oso will ask mi call others..hey, get tis clear, i juz WANNA tok on phone wif u..
sometimes we quarrel, i dun deny i'm totally pissed off..at times i realli realli dun wanna tok 2 u..but trust mi, nv once tat happens..i juz noe being normal iz better den ignoring one another or having cold war..i certainly dun wanna tat..u got it? tats y i rather juz apologise and patch back..i juz dun wanna hav any quarrel wif u..tat will only cause unhappiness..u realli realli can capture my heart and rather not a quarrel..no matter how pissed i'm...in d end i'll still giv u a call or send u a sms..tats true isn't it..
yep, perhaps u'r rite, u dunnoe mi..only outside..i dun even noe myself..in the search of myself, but i still cant find myself..how can i expect u 2 noe mi when i dun even noe myself? so all faults lies on mi..
i'm juz nothing but unreasonable and stuffs..
bcoz i dunnoe wad i wan so i cause lots of troubles..i hav difficulty making decision..i DUN even noe 2 go jc or poly iz one example.. i DUN even noe wad i'm doing.. i juz tell u straight perhaps in e first place i nv do things fer my own, i'm juz following wad others wan mi 2 do.. u dunnoe how corrupted i'm actually..
after all, i'm juz nothing...
in e past so close 2 agnes, sb, ky.. but now i lose dem all.. i'm not sad bout agnes and sb, coz e feeling fade!!!!!!!! believe mi!!!!!!!!!! but ky..it's e first thing damn fucking saddening thing happen 2 mi, i cant deny it's damn hurting..of coz everything iz i cause tat... i cant b a good frenz...u got it?? tats y i'm not even a good jie jie..
yea, i alwaz tell u i'll b dere fer u...but nv once i'm ..
hey, but sm can help u wif ur prob..coz ur r from e same level...and tat u believe her, and she believe u..or should i put it in another way.. both of ur r holding on 2 each other against agnes dey all..u got wad i'm tryin ter say?
i cant blame u fer doubting mi in one way or another..perhaps, my everything iz not genuine fer u 2 believe..
i'm indeed screwed up, i dunnoe wad iz e purpose of all these craps..
if i say i need u 2 believe mi, wad will u do?
if i ask u not 2 doubt mi, wad will u do?
nah..u'r juz e one i realli do think of when do things..and of coz 2 protect u if i can..well, jie jie's luv fer u iz unwrittenable, juz deep down from my heart...juz luv u lots..yep..u'r juz simply too good fer mi..perhaps i dun deserve u..wonderful xiao mei mei indeed..
juz hope dun quarrel le..patch back and juz b normal?
pls..
and..my deepest remorse, i'm sorri..sincerely sorry..
if crying can solve everything, everything will b fine..
i ever ever realli pray fer god 2 take away my life, true..
nothin will change yah? u promise de..
erm..cheer up..
and..my deepest remorse, i'm sorri..sincerely sorry..
you took mine.
and i took yours.
10:28 PM
his girlfriend.